La La Land

Kuantan-Cherating
Originally uploaded by PensilShapener.

Days... the days are getting harder to go by. My mind is not clear, not focused & just space of emptyness.

I speak to myself at times especially during the night. Does this means I am losing my mind ? Work is the the most likely cause of the problem. My own diagnostics proves that this is causing depression & could well escallate into something else. It probably already did as much damage already as I deny it. At times i'd began to become defensive, hurting people as I go along. This is bad, real bad.

How will the transition of the problems I am going tru go by ? Probably not but it has gone far too deep down the rabbit's hole. Comming out wont't be easy. Outsiders would never thought me, Charlie going out of my mind, hell I'm suppose to be the invincible one.

Guess NOT. I'll probably need to see a shrink... maybe get myself institutionalized ? Maybe... only time will tell how far a person can actually go beyond rationalization , or just snap. Things are not always as they seem, and my life seems worthless at times. But striving for the loved ones is what keeps one going, hell god chose me bcoz I cud handle it ? Am I able to do just that ?

LIFE, SUCKS & i hope yours doesnt.